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I ran into my blog randomly on google and suddenly realised that it existed and all those resolutions made years back flooded my memory. How I'd promised to blog regularly, how I'd created my definition of blogging, stating it a virtual diary writing routine, with nothing excluded on the basis of being too personal...I mean you wouldn't do that to your diary, right?
Confessions :1. re-reading this whole thing, I came across two posts and categorised them under "way too personal" and deleted them.
2.Another realisation alert - All my posts were so morbid. I mean seriously depressing ! but i guess clinical depression is a relevant excuse. Anyway, for everyone who reads my blog [ i understand there's not much of it.], Ive got some major news..... I AM CURED. No more depression, blues and lows. I feel like a new person. So very fresh and happy and complete and happy and light and happy and just....normal. Wow, this is truly awesome ! Yayyyy Me. =D.
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25.04.2010,13:59.


I have to walk through every day so carefully. Each step placed after the first with trepidity, because, its waiting to happen. I am so scared a ditch is going to open up and I'll fall through, like Alice, only gored and scratched till I'm drained of blood when I reach the bottom.And there I'll lie blue and dying.Waiting for death that never shows its elusive face. And when it does causes so much pain, such a lot of pain, that I run again...only running from your last resort leaves with no place to run to. So I just keep running and running till I faint exhausted and near dead; but Never Dead.
I am so frightened of happiness...it always shows up before intense mental agony. I am scared of day cause night has to follow and there's no escaping it.
But I am trying.... trying to not think about what is to follow... and only concentrate on the few stolen minutes of peace. To live oblivious in the calm before storm takes over and shreds me into tiny pieces of …
25.04.2010,23:33.

Ive been reading very sprasely and its humiliating really. Mostly Wilde and Shaw.... a little something by Jean Webster, RK Narayan, PG Wodehouse, Jane Austen, Mark Twain and a small helping of Sir Doyle. I have to start some serious reading. This is highly insulting to a literature student.
I propose to read : Charlotte Bronte, Dickens. And a few classics....before I revert to light reading for a while again.
I have taken up a task of reading philosophy lately and I am starting with Nietzsche [Friedrich Nietzsche]. Only, I have this habit of forgetting everything that I read, so, I thought I'd write a summary of everything read. But it is so tedious that either I'll be a very slow reader or will skip the notes making process altogether and go on a guilt trip.
Anyway, wish me luck with it. =)
And, let me recommend Wilde to you....his plays have a of entertaining you while instilling morals and you never even find out. They are quite fun too.
I am listening to moza…